quiet now
at long last
my inner voice
not what I want
I want passion
excitement
a reason to live
my inner voice
says
who cares
quiet now
too much so
still fighting the shadows
of long ago
I am 46 years old and have been married to my wife Diane aka felinefrisky for 22 years. We live in Florida with three cats and have generally been enjoying ourselves.
If you read the pages at the top of my blog you will discover that I have multiple others living in me. Rose Dewy Knickers has two blogs of her own and is seeking a literary agent. I am a poet [my poetry blog is here] and a self-published author of "Real Magic".
Our novel can be purchased at Amazon.com or Barnes and Noble.com
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Blessing~ 1991-2008
Those of you in the know, know what this is about. It’s about trying to change a lifetime of faults and fears passed between different personalities like a hot potato. I’m it, and making a mess of the attempt.
I’ll get there though, somehow, someway, I’ll feel better. I’ll succeed once more in fulfilling another dream.
right there w/ ya….
(((((Brian))))))
Been there. Feeling it with you, Brian. Be kind to yourself.
I don’t think we ever come to end of this process. It’s what we learn on the journey that’s important.
Brian, I can relate to having these feelings…I hope it brings some comfort knowing that you’re not alone in these moments of struggle. You expressed yourself beautifully, and I hope the shadows will give you a respite soon.
Thank you my friends.
I know I am not alone on this journey.
It’s my inability to change that is so frustrating. I don’t like where I am, but am too… something.
Why even try to change? Let it be..
i wish for no gentle epitaph
Because I’m not happy with me, not even content, not even pretending to be content.
But you cannot really change the inner voice. It is your pivot, that which you must stay true to.
Why is it our inner voice sometimes speaks contrary to what our immediate place seems to be? Tender and thoughtful.
Sounds like you have the motivation to change–that’s a big part of the battle right there. (((HUGS)))
Go with the flow of life Brian. Let it be.
I feel this. You write about it so well, it brings a visceral ache. You’re tough, a fighter, and so much more, my friend!
(I’m sorry I didn’t answer your lovely email from a few weeks back. Another computer of mine crashed, along with email. I read the warm note. Thank you!)
Thinking of you